Although it’s summer, I feel like I didn’t have time to rest. Promotion, concerts, rehearsals etc. that were a part of the EP took over my entire time and energy. All I wanted is to get away, be somewhere where there is no internet, no signal and a lake that I can swim in:)
I think I have a really good luck, because upon my arrival to my Grandma’s house there was a storm, which lead to no power, no signal and no water. At first I thought it’s a disaster. Only later I realized it was a true blessing.
How no power, no internet, no heat or water be a blessing? Well, when you have absolutely nothing you have time. Time to be creative, to think, to reflect, to rest. Time to actually talk to someone that is next to you, to have discussions about the book you read or the things you see around you.
I am not a painter. I was always ashamed to do it because I saw the things I don’t like in all that I drew or painted. When I had no internet or power, I had nothing/no one to compare myself to. I brought brushes and paint just in case I would want to try to create something again. One evening, I sat down at a porch and started drawing. It opened up my brain, my soul and suddenly I stopped judging myself.
Is it because I had no internet or power and I was resting from something that is constantly in my mind and hands? I don’t know. What I know for sure is that a small thing like this changed me and how I feel when I do things I am not perfect or even good at.
That way, 4 days with no power, no signal and no water changed my life. I realized that talking to people, but not half talking!, is more important than anything. Being present right now, taking time to listen to your thoughts, ideas, not judging yourself and letting go of fears and barriers that we create for ourselves is a key to be happy.
Listen to what is inside of you, don’t just judge yourself, do something that you always wanted but maybe you were too afraid to do.
Sometimes a small thing such as no power can change your life/point of view.